I just updated a graph so that the bars were all rainbow colours, rather than the drab default colours Excel assigns. This makes me happy! Yay for rainbow graphs! :D

Finding myself all of a sudden 6 weeks away form my wedding, I’m now at a point where I can picture everything; I know what each step is going to involve, what it’s going to look like, how it’s going to work. I’m almost there on knowing when it’s all going to happen as well (timings are tricky things).

A question I asked myself recently was, if I got the chance to do it all again, what would I do differently? I’m not talking about a second marriage, but a second WEDDING. Maybe I get the chance to marry my love again for some weird reason, or renew our vows, or with the aid of time-travel I can have my wedding day again but do it a bit differently. I wonder what I would do? I see so many fabulous weddings on websites like http://www.offbeatbride.com and I want to do THEM ALL. I want fair wings, and a rainbow dress, and a Medieval theme, and fancy dress (wait, I AM having that…), and cupcakes, and fireworks, and a forest/mountain/zoo wedding, and horses, and and…

I wonder about the wedding I’m having at the moment. Often I see something weddingy, and I say “I want that, but not like that”. I want table names, not table numbers. I want purple shoes, not ivory ones. I want ribbons in my hair, not a veil. And I realise I’m rebelling against what I consider to be a ‘normal’ wedding – I have become obsessed with putting a twist on everything! I know individuality is a good thing, but have I gone too far and started to consider a ‘normal’ wedding to be a bad thing? How much of this is influenced by what I read and see on the internet, rather that what’s in my heart? What would I have done if I’d been taken away from the internet and magazine and just planned a wedding the old fashioned way – with a phone book and a vicar and my parents? What is wrong with ivory, and roses, and veils, and saying Pachabel’s Canon in D?

I’m not really sure where all of this was leading. It’s just something my wind was contemplating recently. Hoh hum.